TIRED

Guess having a bad week the other day doesn't guaranteed u to a good week ahead...

i'm still having doubts about the path that i'm choosing now, whether, its for the sake of my future and thus i had to do it..or not..

guess time will tell..hope its not too late.

~~sad heart~~ huhu..

a typical day?

today is saturday..one of my favourite day in the week..probably coz its the weekend :)

so i started today thinking that it was going to be a typical saturday..just like other weeks before..lazing around..but..that did not happen..

I woke up this morning to the sounds from my husband's hp..he did not answer as it was saturday morning- family time.however, his hp rings many times and he decided to LOOK at the phone, luckily too coz it was from his brother. the news: they are coming to our house in an hour's time.with my father and mother in law.erk.actually they are sending my sister in law to college as her semester has just started..

OMG..

I woke up with a jump and began planning on what to do (haha). thankfully we had mop the house yesterday (weekly wajib job), and we bought chicken meat and fish the week before, so there are some lauk available. my husband asked me to cook my rendang (crazy-in 1 hour?), fry the fish and vege..and somehow, i managed to get the job done :) as an amateur cooker-i had to be proud of myself (haha).

I plan to apply for the post of super woman next year.

so..the rest, everything was ok..my rendang tasted fine..however as i am in a special diet, there was no lauk for me available (haruan sup doesn't sound appetising does it?) it took a LOT of effort for me not to eat them all..funnyla cooking something that u cannot eat, but never mind :)

At the end of their trip i was feeling very tired..(haha, so much for being super) but most important is that everything goes well. so..sup dinner for me-again. i must say that it is an experience for me to have ur mother in law to visit u suddenly, and maybe everyone had their own experience like this. the moral of the story- have to always had lauk or some emergency 3 in 1 or 4 in 1 or whatsoever for cases like this.haha. and have to keep instant donuts or epok2 too. i seldom use the 3 in 1 thingy so maybe had to survey some brands for future references.

or maybe, just maybe, don't answer your phone on saturday morning :) just kidding..

so much for a typical saturday.

p/s- balik kampung this week...and 1 week more for my diet and D-day,huhu..hopefully all goes well..

i want one... :)

everything new...

the first week of 2010 flew by~~and, although its only the 1st week so far, many things happened..hopefully for a reason..

i attended a seminar last weekend about studies..and it really sucks..i regret coming to it until now. when i woke up that morning the weather is gloomy-its been raining on and off since the new year. so i've arrived kinda a bit late (15 minutes to be exact) because of the weather (rain2 go away..). however, the door to the seminar was already locked, and many of us (like me) were stranded outside. feeling really2 bummed, it does effected my mood for the whole day. at last, the door was opened after 1 hour after i waited there (my husband ordered me too, so..) and many of them who waited with me had already left. i just couldn't understand WHY didn't they did not assigned a staff to 'look' at the door once in a while. after all, the place was comfortable, with aircond, and 15 minutes..man, we're not supposed to miss much. maybe all of them had big cars and everything, and did not have to worry about the weather like us. i'm really2 pissed off with them!!

for the second part, everything seems well at first. until..the Q & A section. I decided to ask a question, and man, i regret that decision until now. my question was answered with a snide remark, pissing me off. and the worst part of it was that the remarks were added by bapak2 org wearing kopiah and everything! i mean, with that image, should they be more polite and everything? then what for they wear that kind of gear just to say something impolite to this lady? bad day for me i guess..

as for the week..everything goes well, i guess...but not quite for us..maybe its not the right time yet for us to expand our family. i don't know if i was the one who failed,but this is our 1st time, and i promise to take care of myself better next time. speaking of taking care, i have to thank my husband a lot during this hard times..and he made me eat A LOT..maybe this test is to gave prove that he really loves me and i should take care of him better. now, the only focus is to get myself to be strong again..

hopefully 2010 will be a wonderful year for us..

being a rahayu...

its friday, the 1st of January 2010, nearly a week since my new life started..i haven't settle down yet. and also i haven't made up my mind whether on to stay or should i go..its kinda early to do that, i guess. hopefully i can settle down as soon as possible and without the-phobia-of my past part..

i'm still trying to be a good wife since my new life started..its been very2 tiring..have to cook and clean and everything..plus my new life..hope that Allah give me strength to go on..

although this is not my dream and i did this for my husband, who knows that maybe this is the right decision after all..

still hoping for my dreams to come true. amin.

gunung pn harus ku daki...